Thu, 19 May 2005

artificial memory: june 1988
“No, he would…right! That’s what I’m saying! It’s like he, like he doesn’t know, and I mean *I* don’t know but that doesn’t mean I’m just gonna sit in my room and wait, I mean, nobody fucking knows, so why don’t we just go out and get it on?” [deleted] “Yeah, but that’s, that’s fucking ridiculous. I mean, I look back at the destruction I’ve left in my wake, and that’s no small amount of destruction, and but how could I have moved anywhere and not made some sort of impact. And yeah, people get hurt, but for fuck’s sake, why should safety be our guiding concern? What do we learn from being safe? How do we ever change if we are constantly safe? And how is that even logical as, as a place to go from, go out from in a relationship?” [reply deleted] “But that’s the thing, I’m responsible, I’m completely responsible, and I have to work out from that, I’m not denying anything, I’m not, y’know, anyone else’s fault, I’m just saying if I have to choose between fucking up and then fixing what I fucked up or else never doing anything at all, I’m gonna fuck up every single time, because” [remainder of conversation taped over with the album Darklands by The Jesus and Mary Chain]
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