it is completed when there is no one left to witness
I spent my workdays dreaming of incidents in her history she had never
spoken of, blank canvas for my inevitable and ultimately corrosive
projections, a December morning as a little girl dancing with her mother
across the kitchen linoleum with little ladybugs drawn in blue ink on the
backs of her hands and rhubarb pies just starting to brown in the oven, a
June evening where her eighteen-year old hands push a piano down the dirt
path to a clearing of blankets and underwear and an axe with which she
will enact her final revenge for ten years of forced lessons, until
finally I have abstracted her entirely from the flesh and tedium of what
she truly is, back in my head, cotton in my ears.
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