skin for everyone
there is a heat source they hold in the mouth and exchange, back and
forth, under the disguise of conversation and they are nurtured and
educated by this process and i cannot understand its nature and my
possession of the source is a corruption and the understanding of the
intent of all those who have held the source in the mouth is
unintelligable to me and makes me literally sick in the muscle of my neck
and chest and also in my stomach and now my mouth is ruined for food or
speech and still i do not understand you are all blank to me and my every
attempt is just mimicry and politeness only now the mouth has been
disfigured and cannot make certain shapes barring me from certain sounds
and through the diminished glottals in the sound of my voice everyone
knows what i am.
(12:25.05.19.2005) [/scrytch] #